I am a hot mess people. I just don't feel like myself. This is going to be personal, so feel free to ignore this post if you'd like. So many things have happened this year that have been hard. Let's see:
Adjusting to life as a mom of two (way harder than I thought it'd be for me)
Short selling our home (very emotional and stressful)
Living apart from Jared and my life for 2 months (so hard and something I don't ever want to do again)
Having a third baby when I was by no means ready to be pregnant or upgrade to three quite yet and the guilt I've had for feeling that way
On the upside:
Grayson is awesome and we love that he is in our family
Ethan is an amazing little boy, sweet and kind and so many other wonderful things
Jared is the world's best husband for putting up with me and all my craziness
Getting to be with my family for an extended period of time, I never get to do that
The opportunity to bring another special boy into this world will be great and it is about time I got over the shock
I have so many negative feelings and can't seem to shake them. As a therapist, I "know" what I should do, but for some reason I struggle to do those exact things. Hopefully being with Jared daily will help and getting back into my life: friends, job, church, etc, will help me turn my frown upside down. I shouldn't be ungrateful for all the blessings in my life because my path got a little windy.
